heeeey misaki cheer up..... i think it's really hard for people like you to get stuffs figured out for the future, since you got so many interests and thoughts branched out in your head,,, i guess. maybe you need a change, ,, i don't know. it seems like you and colin are becoming like a 30-year-married couple... it must be hard to separate coz you guys are so used to be together, but sometimes it's a good idea to put some spice in your life.. no? it's really sad that you got no "excitement" even though you got a partner, and it's even sadder that you are still feeling super lonely. do you talk to him how you are feeling and stuff? or does he always go "ah-huh?" ?? maybe you can talk to taka??? it might be a good chance to get closer to him. ehh i suck at giving advice and stuff... it's all based on my experience so i'm not sure if it works on you but i really do want you to be happyyyyy.

well, i wanna be happy so bad too, and i try real hard to be. i went down to NE to dance salsa tonight, and it turned out to be a fun thing. the class was nothing great, ppl were old and goofy, but i just liked how it's so different from bubble-up-in-the-hill LC. i figured that i need to get out of campus and meet totally different ppl tonight. i knew i needed to do that before, but i was just la azy ass to do it till tonight. ah, maybe you can travel to brazil? sorry i'm such an escapephilic person, i always wanna go somewhere. are you not into brazil and the language anymore....??? maybe we can talk about the trip?????